i have been hit..right at the end..thought things were goin smooth..well they never do,atleast for me..something has to go wrong..n then i start up again..tryn to make it right..n if it turns out right for me then it ends messn it for sm1 else..so im jus a part of d bigger plan..n the order of things continue..
2nd year at the collg ended with yet another disasterous xam...it felt lik a homicide..prof takin headshots n me wondern at the hall whats his motive is and..then.. bang..thats what i get..bang..bong is what i had hoped..but things dont work out..so i come back to the hostel..pack my things n leav..iam a half engineer now,im supposd to hav been groomed,nurtured here at national institute of technology tirruchchirraplli..one of the nation's finest tech institutes..only the term fine here has a differnt meaning for me..anyways..in an year il b assumed to knw things..get a job..start actin lik a mature person..talk formally,firm handshakes..n do every other thing that everyone before me had been doin..basically to end up dyn as an old lonely man..i can see it..i can see myself, urslef....no matter what we do to our lives..i can see us rottin away at the end of it all..sitting in front of a tv in a miserable home thinkn bout fixed interest and mortgage ..gettn mind fucked about all odr things that we dnt knw n dnt care rite now..so wts d point..i try to find an answer and this pointless point searchn continues..n so does my will to survive..to survive thez next 2 yrs..people survived holocaust..i try n motivate myself..but then unlike them,i can actually run away..to where is the question..
not all questions hav answers..nor do i answer all questions..so il let that one pass..n hope 1 day..whn in my miserable home i luk back to this time,i hav somethn to make my day a lil less colder..
n mayb that day ill get a lif..
